Past

Is it really that naive to think that I can move on? That I can forget, or at least accept my past and get on with my life? It's hard to be a better person when everyone that you thought was your friend keeps turning against you and reminding you of the person you used to be. I hated that person. I hated the choices I made. And I'm trying I'm really trying to be better, but people won't let my past go. They won't let me move on, it's like they want me to stay in the depressed hateful bubble. And it hurts...Whats the point of trying if it's never going to work? If I'm always gonna be tortured by my poor decisions. I know I'm not perfect, I'm far from it. But I want so desperately to be better, and I'm trying so hard. But my courage and strength, the things driving me to make these changes, Are weakened when these people bring back what I've done, Or just bully me for no reason. Rumors, always get started about me, and once people believe the rumors, I become this terrible or disgusting person. Whats the point? Nobody believes me when I say they aren't true. Leslie was right, Nobody likes me. Nobody ever will, I'm just a no good freak :,(